One of my songs, a sad song.. really... :(



Again - Janet Jackson

I heard from a friend today
And she said you were in town
Suddenly the memories came back to me in my
Mind

Chorus
How can I be strong Ive asked myself
Time and time Ive said
That Ill never fall in love with you again

A wounded heart you gave
My soul you took away
Good intentions you had many
I know you did

I come from a place that hurts
And God knows how Ive cried
And I never want to return
Never fall again

Making love to you
Oh it felt so good and
Oh so right

Chorus
So here we are alone again
Didnt think itd come to this
And to know it all began
With just a little kiss

Ive come too close to happiness
To have it swept away
Dont think I can take the pain
No never fall again

Kinda late in the game and my heart is in
Your hands
Dont you stand there and then
Tell me you love
Me then leave again
Cause Im falling in love with
You again

Hold me
Hold me
Dont ever let me go
Say it just one time
Say you love me
God knows I do
Love you
Again

After that Christmas Party....

After a Christmas Party that was held on our street, on 26th of December, few people celebrated a lot by drinking with "pulutans" ( they used foods that was left during the party ), and me, I joined few friends that i haven't seen for a long time, they're some of my neighbors but being a nursing student... duh!!.. you can't even have time to say hello to your friendly neighbors and chat to them. So we finally get together and you know... have some drinks, talk about crushes, guys, love life(which i don't want to talk about), and school stufs.. It took us till midnight.. nearly morning i guess to finish our get together...

When I was about to go home, a man came.. I know this person, my ex-neighbor whom i didn't know that much, I know he's a bit drunk on the way he speaks... he's always saying words on me like, he would want me to be his subject on a photo shoot, that was after he took a photo of my group, and always mentioning my name like we were close, but we were not!... I just know that he was trying to get close..
I was about to leave, I said byebye to all, then he came on me and said Bye and Merry Christmas!.. then.. he kissed me on my cheeks with his wet lips...yuck!!! I didn't know what to do, I realized that i just turned around and walk my way home.. i was thinking on what if i slapped his face??? I don't know but I know i can't do that because Im not not that kind of person. I always control my temper and anyways it's christmas...but I just can't forget that happening... To others maybe it's nothing but to me.. I'm not used to that, no guy ever kissed me on cheeks with his lips except ofcourse my exboyfriends.. not until that guy came, hate the fact that his lips tuched my cheeks.. beso beso would be nice but only to my friends not to any stranger... I don't want to see him again.. Hmp!!!!


are you Drunk??? -
ARE YOU SURE???? :p

How Would This Like....

After this day I would be stronger... I will work hard and forget my past... I was left by him with reasons that are not clear.. Still have questions roaming around my mind... But when can I forget him??? It's my fault i gave my all, i gave all my love that nothing was left for me.... from this day on i would try to learn how to bring that love back to myself.. i'll try to be happy and be brave...I'm young and life must go on... In this.. my journey starts...


I would like to share my thoughts, my experiences and everything else.. I just hope that someday my posts will not be about him anymore.. i hope that it will be about my happiness, my great experiences... my experiences that shows I had moved on, my dreams that come true.. Maybe.. I truly hope and pray...